ready or not
I can't help but have baby brain nowadays. Especially with the impending arrival of little miss... we're running into scheduling conflicts (aka. stupid doctors), but most likely she'll be here in a little more than a couple of weeks (March 11th)! Am I ready? Yes. Also, no. But she's bound to come sooner or later, so it's just a matter of time ;) I've been having a lot more Braxton Hicks with this pregnancy; something I barely noticed with Will. Basically, any time I get up from sitting or laying down I have one. Lots of fun. Needless to say, I'm pretty lazy these days! But, I am getting in a lot of crocheting (which I have yet to share, tsk-tsk). And I day-dream about other projects that will probably never come to fruition... like burp cloths, onesies, blankets and some cradle bedding (see below). Maybe if I get a HUGE surge of energy in the next week... we'll see :)
Anyway, with only 16 days to go (I KNOW!), I am getting anxious/nervous. I can't wait to see her, and hold her, and kiss her, etc. But, am I ready for two kids? I'm worried about Will. Not that he's not ready or won't be a great big brother. Because he is and he will be. But I'm worried that I won't be there for him like I have been for the past 3.5 years. I mean, he's my little buddy. It's just been me and him for a long time now. And that will change dramatically when baby comes. I'm not ready for the guilt and stress of sharing myself, if that makes sense.
I'm sure the mental and emotional preparation will come, in time. But, in the meantime, I have rounded up a few baby essentials (and dreaming about more). I already have most of what I'll need, since I've been-there-done-that. I'm just missing some clothes. The girly kind (I'm also worried about how I'll handle that... I'm not a big girly-girl)! Oh, I did pick up a steal of a cradle to use for the first few months, since we're a little cramped here already. I'm also rethinking my choice of crib bedding. Not that I don't love the bumper pad I already bought, but I'm really wanting something more soft and shabby cottage (think soft blues, pale yellows with just a touch of pink):
{top to bottom, left to right: crib bedding, crib bedding, and the cradle}
Something that I did get (thanks mom!) and LOVE is my diaper bag! I've been wanting one of these babies for years.. and I've wanted this baby for years, too. Just a few things need to be hammered out and readied, but we're mostly just waiting till she gets here. *B
Beth, I am so excited for you to hold your little miss and I am so excited for me to see her! haha! I so remember the feeling of guilt before Beckam was born. Worrying that I wouldn't have enough time, energy, love, ect. to go around but for some crazy reason it all works out. I was talking to my sister-in-law this past weekend and told her I like being a mom of 2 better than a mom of 1. I couldn't put my finger on why until today. I love it for many reasons but most of all because I get to watch my children learn how to love. I have seen them like their friends and be excited to see their cousins but it wasn't until Beckam was born that I really got to watch Cade love his brother and it is such a magical, heartwarming, and touching thing to watch your children learn how to love completely and selflessly.
ReplyDeleteYou will do fantastic. It is scarier to think about it than it is to actually do it. You are a wonderful mama and your little ones are lucky to have you! So excited!!
midnight posting, huh? (it's not nearly that late here.) girly, get to bed! :) although, thanks for the news in more than just one twitter sentance - because we (or I, I guess I can only speak for myself) do care.
ReplyDeleteI can't believe it is getting so close! I'm so excited for you.
ReplyDeleteI totally know the feeling about moving onto having two children. I remember the night I went to the hospital to have Alli---I sobbed all the way there just realizing that it wouldn't just be me and little G anymore. It seems like the minute the two met though--those feelings disappeared. Good luck to you!
I think those are pretty common feelings before having a second child. I know I mourned for several days what I thought would be the loss of my relationship with Russell as he had grown up on my lap, literally, but it was actually an easy transition. I think we try so much harder with our second babies to make sure the first one doesn't suffer and they actually end up getting even more attention. You can do it! I believe in you!
ReplyDeleteI'm very excited for you! She'll be here so soon. That's sooo awesome that you got a Petunia Pickle Bottom diaper bag....I can't wait to finally buy mine!! :) I'm excited to hear how the labor and everything goes...and to see pictures of your little one! Hope you are feeling as comfortable as possible!
ReplyDeleteI am so excited for you! I have felt some of the guilt you were refering to, and in those moments I try to think of what I could do or say that would remind Jacob of my love. I am amazed at how some of the most simple ideas have helped both he and I to smile and adjust :) Another plus to only having two is that the adults are not yet outnumbered. Jacob has loved any effort we can make to give solo time with one of us.
ReplyDeleteAgain, I am so excited for you! We will be gone until the beginning of April, but I will get in touch when we get back to find out what would be helpful!
(p.s. I love the diaper bag!)
I can't believe you are due so soon! That is exciting. Have you guys picked out a name yet? I love the diaper bag that you chose. It is darling. I just sent mine in to be repaired and it was unfixable so they let me pick out a new one. It was a hard decision. I went with the inda ink but I really miss my old bag:( It was super nice of them to let me pick out a new one though:) Good choice:)
ReplyDeleteAmanda: I believe you are guilty of pregnancy brain! More like noon than midnight, haha
ReplyDeleteNatalie: most likely there won't be any labor (aka. a C-sec), hence the mostly solidified due date ;)
Shellie: yes, we have! Elizabeth Rae, or Elsie for short
Everyone: thanks so much for your excitement and sweet comforting/encouraging words! *B
(Don't you all just love my girl? I sure do!!!)
ReplyDeleteI am SO excited to meet our little sweetie. I have accumulated lots of presents for her already. I wonder if I will ever stop shopping for her? Probably not, since I still shop for you ALL the time!
I know exactly what you mean about having to "share" yourself with a new baby. And yeah, I did have those tearful, hormonal moments where I didn't feel like I was able to give my 4-year-old Kenzie all the attention she needed. But I think in the end, a sibling is one of the best gifts you can give your child. You'll all be fine!
ReplyDeleteNot only is it hard to try and give the oldest the love and care he needs, but the yunger one never gets the amount of attention the older one got. But beth if I can do it you can most definitly can do it.:)
ReplyDeleteGood luck these next few weeks getting ready for baby. I can't wait to see pictures!
ReplyDeleteHow very exciting!!! I'm keeping you in my prayers! :) (I can't wait to see the cute little baby!)
ReplyDeleteBeth, I am worried about pretty much the same thing. I have been the center of Maeyah's little world for 4 1/2 years now and with the new baby coming I worry just what it is going to do to her world! I've done this before so I have no worries about not being able to love them all enough, but I know how demanding newborns are and how exhausted and run down I am going to be. I do worry for Maeyah. She is going to be turned upside down for awhile I am sure. Of course, there is always an adjustment period after having a new baby, no matter how many kids you already have. I am just hoping everyone will be able to feel how much I love and need them all and that life will return to somewhat normal again sooner rather than later!
ReplyDeleteI can't believe your time is so close now! It is so exciting. I hope all goes well for you and your family and new little one. You will be in my prayers!
16 days oh my! I wish I could be there. Well, okay, not actually in the surgery room, but in California to see the little one when you bring her homw. Oh well, I guess I will settle for some photos. I want them posted ASAP. None of this wait a week crap. ( I officially reserve the right to use crap, on your blog since you used it on mine. Ha!) Anyway, good luck. My next comment will be on the birth announcement.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on the baby girl! I love the fabric swatches you chose for the bedding. I'm having a hard time finding something I like in London- and UK cribs are smaller than US cribs, so nothing from America fits! I think I might have my mom make something custom... it's okay to be picky about these things.
ReplyDeleteI'm so excited for you! It will be so fun with 2! Trust me! I'll admit it's overwhelming ( the having to share yourself feelings), but so worth it! Also, can I just say that I'm so jealous of your new bag? I've wanted a Petunia forever! They were on sale the other day at my fave site that I've wanted to share with you for forever but forgot, so here it is: www.babysteals.com They have great deals daily that I think are just up your alley so check it out! And good luck with everything!
ReplyDeleteCUTE! CUTE! CUTE!!! I"m so excited and so happy for you guys!! I wish I lived closer to help you out. We can't wait for the newest member of the family to arrive. My thoughts and prayers are with you guys are her due date gets closer.
ReplyDeleteYAY! I love your fabric choices and I'm excited that you ended up getting your bag! :) Its so close! I can't wait to see what baby looks like! I know she'll be absolutely beautiful...just like you! :) Heartcha bad! XOXO
ReplyDelete16 days. Wow.
ReplyDeleteI love that blue fabric with the big pink flowers. Gorgeous.
Ok. The anticipation is killing me. Is today the 16 days? Please post. I am dying!
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