ready or not
I can't help but have baby brain nowadays. Especially with the impending arrival of little miss... we're running into scheduling conflicts (aka. stupid doctors), but most likely she'll be here in a little more than a couple of weeks (March 11th)! Am I ready? Yes. Also, no. But she's bound to come sooner or later, so it's just a matter of time ;) I've been having a lot more Braxton Hicks with this pregnancy; something I barely noticed with Will. Basically, any time I get up from sitting or laying down I have one. Lots of fun. Needless to say, I'm pretty lazy these days! But, I am getting in a lot of crocheting (which I have yet to share, tsk-tsk). And I day-dream about other projects that will probably never come to fruition... like burp cloths, onesies, blankets and some cradle bedding (see below). Maybe if I get a HUGE surge of energy in the next week... we'll see :)
Anyway, with only 16 days to go (I KNOW!), I am getting anxious/nervous. I can't wait to see her, and hold her, and kiss her, etc. But, am I ready for two kids? I'm worried about Will. Not that he's not ready or won't be a great big brother. Because he is and he will be. But I'm worried that I won't be there for him like I have been for the past 3.5 years. I mean, he's my little buddy. It's just been me and him for a long time now. And that will change dramatically when baby comes. I'm not ready for the guilt and stress of sharing myself, if that makes sense.
I'm sure the mental and emotional preparation will come, in time. But, in the meantime, I have rounded up a few baby essentials (and dreaming about more). I already have most of what I'll need, since I've been-there-done-that. I'm just missing some clothes. The girly kind (I'm also worried about how I'll handle that... I'm not a big girly-girl)! Oh, I did pick up a steal of a cradle to use for the first few months, since we're a little cramped here already. I'm also rethinking my choice of crib bedding. Not that I don't love the bumper pad I already bought, but I'm really wanting something more soft and shabby cottage (think soft blues, pale yellows with just a touch of pink):
{top to bottom, left to right: crib bedding, crib bedding, and the cradle}
Something that I did get (thanks mom!) and LOVE is my diaper bag! I've been wanting one of these babies for years.. and I've wanted this baby for years, too. Just a few things need to be hammered out and readied, but we're mostly just waiting till she gets here. *B
