pensivity

Uh, hi there.  Been a while...

You know, it's funny to think how far I've come in the past few years.  As a woman, as a mother, as a blogger.  I mean, I'm still the same person.  I still love red.  And polka dots ;)  And I continue to find joy in being creative, whether that's in crafting or in homeschooling.  But I find it funny, as I'm about to hit publish for the first time in however many years, how much this little piece of the web has changed for me.

We moved into our little dream home more than a while ago, and life has been that: a dream.  Not easy, and certainly not glamorous.  But it's been my life.  I've worked hard on being more present in my day-to-day, which is extremely difficult when you're a dreamer like me!  And this year I've felt prompted to be even more present.  Actually, the two phrases I've chosen to guide me this year are "be present" and "be prepared".

Am I the only one that finds those two phrases completely opposite of one another?  Maybe it's because the struggle is real; finding the perfect balance between enjoying life now and dreaming of what it could be.  But as I've pondered upon the idea of being both present and prepared, I've realized that what I really need is to be aware.

I need to live my life now, as it currently is, so as to know what I will need for the future.  This obviously applies to the world of preparedness, such as food storage and evacuation kits.  But I think it can also apply to other matters.  Physically, spiritually, emotionally and mentally.

And so I'm striving to live life with a new level of awareness.  Here I am world.  I see you.  *B